You talk a lot about wanting to be someone better; you say you’re meditating to become an evolved being. Read countless self-help books and attend motivational seminars as if there were no tomorrow. Swearing by everything sacred that you’ve forgiven this person or that one, but let me tell you something: none of that matters if you continue with a frozen and closed heart. Life won’t change.
The Freedom of the City Bird
Life is like a bird, free to fly, but without a sense of direction, it gets lost and wounded in the middle of the forest. Freedom exists, but there must be common sense. You have to understand that everything is relative. If you are a city bird, there’s no use trying to fly to the mountains; if you love the cold, don’t try to live in the heat of the desert.
I know you look in the mirror and don’t like what you see! You feel uninteresting, colorless, friendless, and dull. When you lie in bed, it feels like you’re sharing it with an enemy, an impostor who has taken control of your choices. The clothes don’t fit, the accessories don’t beautify, and your hair has become a tangled mess of disillusionment.
The Second-Hand Identity
Wake up, you will only manage to change when you start believing in yourself more. It’s no use pretending to be strong, cool, or modern if, deep down, you are more afraid than anything else. Audacity sent its regards, courage said it got lost, and confidence moved out a long time ago. Your original fragments have been replaced by second-hand parts from discontinued models, with no warranty or support.
Change the station, switch the channel, reinvent yourself. Tear down those walls and fences you built throughout your life to protect yourself, which in the end, only isolated you. You created a cocoon and a prison for your inner self. Solitary confinement is the worst part of any jail because it’s where it’s just you against your inner soul. And that is terrifying.
Escaping the Parallel Reality
It sounds like crazy talk, but nothing is what it seems. You only see what you want to see and end up living in a distorted parallel reality. Not even your friends and family recognize you anymore. You lost yourself, believing you had to be many things you didn’t need to be, mostly just to fit in and please others.
It’s time for you to jump! Throw yourself in! Feel the adrenaline in the air. Remove that mask and show the world who you truly are. It hurts, it aches, it causes discomfort, but that’s the only way to actually get somewhere better.
If you continue living this fantasy, by the time you realize it, all that might remain is a hollow echo of yourself. A literal ghost crawling through the ruins of a world that you couldn’t even stand in your greatest dreams.
Final Thoughts: From Theater to Life
I know that from this side, I cannot change you, after all, it’s your life and the decisions must be yours. However, if you want to talk, I will always be here to listen and advise you. I have rebuilt myself many times, and I know what this feels like. Every child who discovered they were “different” after adolescence knows what it’s like to live in a grand theater every single day.